On February 8, 2008, the New Mexico Senate passed Senate Memorial 9
with a unanimous vote!
Please join us in thanking the Honorable Senators who worked and voted on this; especially Senator Joseph Carraro who introduced this important legislature.
Senator Carraro has been wonderful since the first time I contacted him about the need for "Sarina's Law" and he has continued to work hard for Sarina and all of us.
Click HERE for all 42 New Mexico Senators contact information so you can thank them personally.

On February 1, 2008; SM 9 unanimously passed the New Mexico Senate Rules Committee!

Due to the vigorous Crusade from a Mother's Heart, On January 17, 2008; The Honorable Senator Joseph J. Carraro; while in Santa Fe, NM for the 2008 Regular Session, Introduced
to the Floor SM9 (Senate Memorial 9) STUDY ANTIDEPRESSANTS & SUICIDE.
(This is the first step towards "Sarina's Law").

Please click on the following link to view the Memorial.
Memorial text for SM009

It is imperative that the Senate pass this Memorial; which will then have the Health Policy Commission and The Department of Health set up a Task Force and make up a finding of facts; as to the study of psychotropic drugs, how they're prescribed and whether or not there needs to be restrictions on who prescribes them.

I am very pleased and proud that this action has taken place; as you all know, my ultimate goal is to have Suicide-Causing Anti-Depressants Abolished completely. This Memorial is an excellent start, I am also urging Legislature and the Task Force for the respect and acknowledgment to have Sarina's name attached to this Memorial and represent it. It's very important that we all understand that Sarina's Voice is the basis behind this Memorial; which will make certain that Sarina's life and death, and all those hundreds of thousands with her; were not in vein.

Please send the Senate Members your support of SM 9. Click HERE for all 42 New Mexico Senators contact information. Each has an equal vote for the memorial so please email as many as you can. Also email your letters to me so I can post them here.

Thank you,

Camille Milke, Eternal "Mommy" of Sarina Angel
Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow and Forever........
My Beautiful Baby Girl, 1/26/86 - 10/28/07, 21 years 9 months 3 days
COPES Foundation (Coalition Of Parents Enduring Suicide)
Founder and President

Here are the letters we have received so far. Please continue to send them as we are building strength for Sarina's Voice and "Sarina's Law"!

Dear Honorable Senators,

Since the start of the current Legislative Session and the introduction of Senate Memorial 9 (SM009) STUDY ANTIDEPRESSANTS & SUICIDE by Senator Joseph J. Carraro; I have received nearly 100 letters of support, dozens more testimonials and signatures on my online petition. All of them ask, beg or plea that something be done with the ANTIDEPRESSANTS that have harmed so many. This starts with the passing of SM9, the organization of a task force and the educating of the public.

As you may know, I lost my daughter to Suicide-Causing SSRI Anti-Depressants on October 28, 2007. After which I have done extensive research on these medications and have dedicated my life to getting “Sarina’s Voice” heard; to get the word out about these drugs and, ultimately, abolish them so no others can be harmed. If the information that has been available for the last four decades; the drug companies own research data; had been acted on before now, many lives could have been spared and my Sarina would be alive today. There has also been an overwhelming push to call it the “Sarina’s Voice Memorial Act.”

Rather than inundate you with the letters, testimonials and signatures here, I have posted all of it online at the below links. I know your time is precious but I implore you to review the information available so, long overdue, action can be taken. I am certain that after reading the wealth of information on the subject, you will want to check your own medicine cabinets as well as those of your family, friends, co-workers as well as the classmates of your children and grandchildren.

In conclusion, I urge you to pass Senate Memorial 9 and take the time to read the letters, comments, testimonials, signatures and other information from victims, doctors, scientists, legislators and people all over the world that know first hand the horrors that are associated with these medications. There is a world of information available on mine and many other websites.

Here are the links I mentioned and thank you so very much for your time:

Letters of Support - http://copesfoundation.homestead.com/SarinasLaw.html

More Letters of Support - http://copesfoundation.homestead.com/SarinasLaw2.html

Testimonials - http://copesfoundation.homestead.com/Testimonials.html

Online Petition - http://www.ipetitions.com/petition/COPESfoundation/index.html


Camille Milke


January 19, 2008
The Honorable Bill Richardson
Governor of New Mexico
490 Old Santa Fe Trail, Rm. 400
Santa Fe, NM 87501

Re: Senate Memorial 9

Dear Governor Richardson:

I urge you to pass the current Senate Memorial 9, STUDY ANTIDEPRESSANTS & SUICIDE, as I feel this is imperative for the safety and well being of all people. Many studies, even those by the drug manufacturers themselves, show SSRI Antidepressants cause suicidal and homicidal thoughts in their users making them not only unsafe for the people taking them but for their family, friends, classmates or anyone else around them. I know first hand about the death and devastation as my daughter, Sarina Cuoco, took her own life as a direct result of these drugs and the reckless abandon in which they were prescribed to her. I feel this memorial is but the first step toward important discovery about a deadly problem that plagues the world. Other states have passed similar memorials that have gone on to become important legislature and my hope is that one day we will pass a law that is long overdue and name it after our Sarina. I feel New Mexico is perfectly equipped to be one of the front runners in the research and adoption of a law; Sarina's Law; which could, ultimately, save the lives of millions. Please support SM9. It is truly life and death.


Brian Milke




                                           SINCERELY PAT CUOCO


January 21, 2007

New Mexico Legislature

RE:SM9 Memorial Letter of Support

To Whom It May Concern:

My name is Camille C. Swope and I am Sarina Cuoco’s older sister. I have seen first hand what prescription drugs can do and how they can destroy lives.  I strongly support the above referenced memorial, SM9 Memorial. It is urgent that this memorial gets passed in order to eventually have all Suicidal-Causing Anti-Depressants abolished. People’s lives are on the line and we need to put this to an end by continuing with this memorial. I also strongly believe that this memorial shall eventually bear Sarina’s name and be called “Sarina’s Law”

I would like to thank, Senator Joseph Carraro for his hard work and diligence to support and execute this memorial.

Thank you,

Camille C. Swope


I am Sarina's uncle,
The recent tragedy in our family has put the spot light on Anti-Depressants and there adverse effects our population, especially our young people.
I completely support SM9 and ask you to vote yes in support of this Memorial.

Gregg Cuoco


I am Sarina's Aunt,
Sarina's suicide has brought this issue of Anti-Depressants and there adverse effects on our population, especially our young people to the forefront, time & time again there are reports of this kind of tradgey
playing out all over the world.
It's time something is done !
I completely support SM9 and ask you to vote yes in support of this Memorial.

Barbara Cuoco


        I am writing this letter to show my support for Senate Memorial 9
to become Sarina's Voice Memorial.
Something has to be done about these drugs and I belive this a excellent place to start !!
                                             Thank you
                                             Roy Cuoco


I would like to show my support for SM9 (Senate Memorial 9) to become Sarina's Voice Memorial.  There have been to many tragedies related to these drugs and it needs to stop. 
Thank you,
Bernadine Cuoco


To the New Mexico Legislature,
     My name is Roy Cuoco, I am Sarina’s cousin, we grew up together and have always been very close.  This letter is in reference to Sarina’s Law and the SM9 Memorial, I am pleading to those in power to abolish suicidal causing anti depressants.  Sarina has always been a very caring loving woman and mother and this has been an extremely tragic blow to the entire family, she will be missed forever.  I whole heartily believe that only an outside influence could have pushed her to such lengths.  Please help us to stop this from happening to any more families.  I would like to thank Senator Joseph Carraro for his undying support for Sarina’s Memorial and Task Force.  I can’t express the urgency of this memorial being passed; families all over the country will continue to suffer until then.
   I thank you for your time and all your support,
                             Roy Patrick Cuoco Jr.


Dear all members of the New Mexico Legislature,
   My name is Renee Cuoco, I am writing you today to ask you to please VOTE YES on the SM9 Sarinas Voice Memorial Act.  Suicidal causing anti depressants are a horrible thing and need to be abolished.  This tragedy will forever fill our family with grief and she will be greatly missed by all.  There is no way that Sarina was in her right mind and I solely blame the suicidal causing anti depressants, she has never been the type of person that would do something like that.  Please help us save the lives of others and prevent this from happening to any more families. Thank you

            Renee Eileen Cuoco


As the mother of a 9-year-old boy who was put on Risperdal for nausea by an inept pediatrician, I saw first-hand the effects of this type of drug.  His nausea got worse, he had to urinate almost constantly, and he was unable to sleep.  Additionally, he became very agitated and upset...after two weeks, I stopped giving him the drug (without the doctor's "permission")!!  My son was found to have multiple FOOD ALLERGIES which were making it difficult for him to digest his food.  After seeing 22 inept doctors over a 2-year period and eating a vastly different DIET, he is a happy and healthy child once again.

It is my experience that medical doctors (never mind the psychologists/psychiatrists) are very quick to "diagnose" a medical problem as being something MENTAL when, in fact, it is something which can be diagnosed when the proper lab tests are performed.  It is so much easier to blame the patient than to try to determine the true medical problem.  One of the 22 inept doctors we saw was a pediatric gastroenterologist, who solemnly told my son, "You know, Ted, sometime the brain tells the gut that the gut doesn't feel well, even though there's nothing wrong with the gut."  This without first doing any lab testing (which later showed that my son was producing serum (blood) antibodies to several FOODS). 

Because of this frenetic prescription-writing by doctors of all types (thanks to powerful "persuasion" by the drug companies), our children are being incorretly labeled and drugged.  The result?  An unsafe society - suicidal or homocidal behavior.  A recent Frontline program on PBS portrayed a 4-year-old child on 8 psych medications.  What will happen to this child when he is ready for his first driver's license?  

I am thrilled to think that an investigatory commission will be looking into a link between these drugs and the tragedies which are occurring more and more frequently as more of our children are being "diagnosed" and drugged. 

Karen Cormac-Jones
Salem, Oregon


To:  New Mexico Legislature

Ref:  SM9 (Senate Memorial 9) Sarina's Voice Memorial Act

Please vote YES to pass this memorial and make certain that Sarina's name is attached to it. 

Having spent many years working as an Administrator for alcohol and drug rehabs, I have seen the deleterious effects of antidepressants experienced by many patients.  These effects ranged from bizarre behavior to hallucinations, suicidal ideation and attempted suicide.  Fortunately, these patients were in a protected environment and were reached before serious consequences occurred.  Although antidepressants have been successful in helping many individuals achieve better quality of life, all too often they are indiscriminately prescribed without proper patient monitoring for drug interactions.  The results can be disastrous. 

Thank you.


Rita Sickles
Rio Rancho, New Mexico


Antidepressants need more than just a Black Box warning.  Too many people are committing suicide and dying by other means as a direct result of these drugs.  The story about Nicole Smith dying from a drug overdose is well known but you may not have heard about Dallas musician Carter Albrecht who died last fall from the antidepressant Chantix. 

Depression drugs are misrepresented for their effectiveness and dangers.  In the published trials of drugs like Prozac and Paxil only 60% of people showed benefit while 40% showed benefit from the placebo effect.  A recent news report in the New England Journal of Medicine states that when less-positive trials are included the advantage shrinks. 

The drug industry does not play on a level playing field.  In the NEJM review of 74 trials involving 12 drugs it found that 94% of the positive studies found their way into print while only 14% of those with disappointing or uncertain results were published.  The FDA, doctors and the public are being intentionally mislead about the safety and effectiveness of these drugs.

More needs to be done to inform and protect Americans.

Alan Smith

Alan E. Smith
UnBreak Your Health
Website www.unbreakyourhealth.com


Dear Friends,
It pleases me to think that you will be heading an investigation into psychiatric drugs as they are very dangerous.
Sorry for your loss.
Lucy Theobald


Dear Camilla,

I just want you to know that a wholeheartedly support you and support New Mexico Senator Carraro's proposal to set up a commission to investigate the link between antidepressants and suicide.  This is so very much needed.


Pam Teggatz
Clearwater, FL


Dear Senator,
It is of the utmost importance that you support the efforts of all who oppose psychotropic, mind altering, suicide causing drugs. These drugs are causing chaos in our society by creating violence and death. They should be banned!

Please become fully informed about these substances and you will be shocked. You will also learn that every person involved in a school shooting was on one or more of these drugs. The evidence is mounting and it isn't pretty. Please help protect our children by banning these drugs.
Thank you,
Sindi Holmlund


Peter A. & Anna D. Phillips
Rio Rancho, NM

Date: 21 January 2008

To: The New Mexico State Legislature

I urge you to support SENATE MEMORIAL 9, introduced by Senator Joseph J. Carraro.

This bill requests the New Mexico Health Policy Commission to convene a Task Force with the purpose to study the possible correlation(s) between Anti-depressants and suicidal thoughts and behaviors and to recommend solutions to address any correlations.

Thank you for your support,
Peter A. Phillips


Dear Senator Carraro,
This is just a note to express my appreciation for helping out with getting the petition on the floor for SM9 and to have these Anti Depressant drugs removed from the market.  These drugs are a ruination of this country and our future.

Again, thank you for all your hard work in saving our nation.

Angela Profera - Resolution Specialist
Honeywell Financial Services


New Mexico Legislature:
I am a  supporter of SM9 (Senate Memorial 9) to become Sarina's Voice Memorial Act. Please vote "yes", pass this Memorial and make certain Sarina's  name is attached to it.

This child age 12; Died just 8 weeks after being put on Paxil then Zoloft, of antidepressant-induced suicide. Caitlin was a straight “A” student in 5th grade, a talented musician, artist and poet, who loved animals and wanted to be a veterinarian. Then sixth grade began, and combined with the onset of puberty, this bright, sensitive girl who had once loved going to school, was having trouble coping. She was also having problems sleeping. Her parents wanted to help, so they took her to their family physician who gave her Paxil. She didn’t do well at all on it, so he took her off - cold turkey. When they saw a psychiatrist a week later, he put her on Zoloft. Caitlin hung herself with her shoelaces in the girl’s bathroom at the Middle School she was attending. Her parent's said: "We were told that antidepressants like Paxil and Zoloft were ‘wonder drugs’ and that they were safe and effective for children. We were lied to."
There is also a very sweet boy in South Carolina named Chris who's Doctor did the same thing for him at age 12 and he is now in prison for 30 years without parole.
I fully support SM9 (Senate Memorial 9) to become Sarina's Voice Memorial Act.

Clare O'Keefe
Hingham, Ma 02043        claremok@aol.com



    This is in regard to Senate Memorial 9 which NEEDS to be passed by the Legislature as soon as possible.    Thank you very much to Senator Joseph Carraro for introducing this bill this session.       PLEASE PASS THIS BILL & ATTACH SARINA'S NAME TO IT.    Sarina's parents and many others have worked very diligiently to get her VOICE heard since her death in October 2007.     Sarina's  daughter is our precious little 4 year old grandaughter and her mommy should not have died.    THANK YOU.
                                                                              Jeanie Smith & Family
                                                                              Albuquerque, N.M.

Dear Camille,
I experienced suicidal thoughts while on different psychiatric drugs and while being taken off that I at the time attributed to the drugs.   I spent two years back in the 1970s weaning myself off a drug named Sineguan where it was obvious to me that the suicidal thoughts were part of the emotional ups and downs that went with the drug.   I was told to take it at supper time so that side effects of drowsiness and difficulty focusing on work would occur at night while I was asleep.   I would start experiencing withdrawal problems of intense restlessness and nervousness at about three o'clock the next afternoon.    Those settled down after taking the drug at about 5 p.m.   

Increasing the Sinequan so I did not have the withdrawal problems caused me to have difficulty waking up in the morning.   I had to get the kids to school so I would when the alarm went off immediately stand up.    I used to go back to sleep standing up and fall I was so drowsy. 

My family settled in Las Vegas New Mexico in the 1800s around the time the Santa Fe railroad arrived.    I was born and grew up in Las Vegas, New Mexico in the 1940s and 50s.  

My childhood was full of a lot of psychological talk and I think everybody but me knew that all this was connected to the fact that about 15 years before I was born some folks in my family had problems with mental illness.    We lived across the street from New Mexico Highlands University and took in a student as a border who studied psychology.    She never came up with any opinions to the effect that I or anybody in my family had problems.  But her presence was a part of the talking about psychology atmosphere of my childhood.  

My Mom tended to have opinions that there was something wrong with me.   On the other hand she taught me to deem as nonsense other opinions that were in the air about us in Las Vegas.   It was some of those opinions that got me sent to a psychiatrist when I was 20 years old.   He deemed them to be nonsense and whenever I brought them up would say, "Mental illness does not run in families and you probably have no more problems than the average person."    A year later I was living in Albuquerque and a therapist I saw with the Catholic Charities said the same thing.  

I went from Albuquerque to take a job as a Chemist with the Food and Drug Administration in Washington DC where I started seeing a psychiatrist by the name of Roger Peele who said the same thing.   If you look in the front of your copy of the diagnosis manual of mental illness you will find his name listed on the committee that puts it out.   I have his email address and he says he thinks my problem at the time I knew him 45 years ago was social anxiety.    He has said that in several emails.  

In Las Vegas when I was 20 years old, I got put on a drug called Meprobamate and kept on it a year.   I was suddenly taken off and experienced severe withdrawal problems.   They settled down after a while but for several years afterward any kind of excitement caused me to have trouble sleeping and be uncomfortably nervous.   Dr Peele and the therapist before him in Albuquerque seemed to not grasp that I was suffering in that way.     

That I think is an example of how judging how someone is doing is a subjective thing.  I have a video of myself one Christmas when I was real upset where I seem real relaxed and full of big smiles and such as that.  On the same tape is a video of the following Easter when I was feeling much better where I am trembling and nervous. The trembling by the way is part of the parkinsonism that goes with antipsychiotic drugs.  

I was on psychiatric drugs for over 30 years and have been off them for 15.   Since getting off I have felt up to doing more.   I was a stay at home Mom for years.   Since getting off I have gotten involved in the community in volunteer work and as an officer in volunteer organizations.   I feel up to working part time because I am no longer afraid of people finding out about  the withdrawal problems I used to get if I forgot to take my medicines.  

I had to go off gradually by small increments.   A reason for not recommending the drugs is they trap a person in mental health care with folks who then do not feel they have to please you to get you to do business with them.   They know you have to see them to get your prescriptions.     They get sloppy with the truth about cooking up opinions about you that you don't like to justify keeping you in treatment.  Dependence on their drugs is not on the list of problems your health insurance covers.  

It makes you want to quit your drugs and if you go off them suicide seems like a way out of your misery when you are experiencing the withdrawal problems.  

Mary Hintz
Irving, TX


Dear Camille Mike,

This is a letter of support from the UK regarding your attempt to point out the dangers of anti-depressants following the death of your daughter, Sarion Cuouco. In particular I would hope that the New Mexico Senator Carraro will be successful in persuading the government to launch a commission to investigate the link between antidepressants and suicide.

My name is John Jones and I am currently a student studying for an MA in Analytic Philosophy at Cardiff University, Wales, UK. As a philosopher I have always found the rationale of mental diagnosis spurious and often downright dangerous, bothe here in the UK and abroad. If you have any problems of an academic or technical nature regarding psychiatric practices I will be pleased to advise you, as I have been studying this topic for some time.

John Jones


Dear New Mexico Legislature,

Please support bill SM9.  We need to stop drugging our children and young adults and turning them into killers and victims of suicide.  Time to wake up!

Patrick Dunaway
Glendale California


The New Mexico Legislature.

I am supporting SM9 to become Sarina's Voice Memorial act. I urge all senators to please vote "yes" so as to make certain this memorial will pass.

                                          Thanks in advance, Benjamin Merhav


FAO: New Mexico State Senators:

Dear Sir/ Madam,

We totally support the implementation of "Sarina's Law" due to our personal tragedy, the suicide of our 18 year old daughter Sharise in 2003.

Sharise hanged herself after 17 days on Paxil/Seroxat.


SSRI's are extremely dangerous drugs!! They have been marketed on fraudulent claims of efficacy. Fraudulent marketing based on guesswork and not science.
SSRI's damage brains especially growing ones !
SSRI's severly damage health in general!
SSRI's are addictive and causes intense withdrawal symptoms in many.

SSRI's are the reason for the escalation in schoolshootings and countless homicides and suicides...


To allow these drugs to remain on the market is totally irresponsible. Fingers will be pointed in future at any decisionmaker who allowed this scandal of the century to continue.

Thank you.
Alfred and Steph Gatchell


Wanda Gardner
Albuquerque, NM 897114

The New Mexico Legislature
Santa Fe, NM

To whom it may concern, I want to inform you that I am supporting SM9 (Senate Memorial 9) to become Sarina's Voice Memorial Act.  I ask the Senators to please vote "yes", pass this Memorial and make certain Sarina's name is attached to it.
Wanda Gardner


On behalf of the 257 members of CHAADA (Children and Adults Against Drugging America) from around the world, listed individually at www.chaada.org, together with our sister organization UNITE (United Non-Profits and Individuals for Truth and Ethics) at www.uniteforlife.org, I write today to urge you to support SM009, the Memorial in honor of Sarina Cuoco.

The link between antidepressants and suicide and homicide has been clear for decades. You might be interested in this video documenting the conflicts of interest that have kept the FDA from making decisions in the best interest of the American public.


We urge you to make the strongest recommendations possible against these killer drugs. If you need any assistance with your investigation, please contact us at info@chaada.org or amy@uniteforlife.org


Dear New Mexico Legislature:

This email is to add my son's voice to Sarina's in crying out for a study of the horrors of  antidepressant SSRI/SSNRIs and other psychotropic drugs. I have asked Camille to share a separately written account of my son B.J. Poole's story with you. Thousands of like-minded people are waiting for your State to lead the wayin the fight to demand honesty and accountability from the pharmaceutical industry. Thank you in advance for undertaking this study. Feel free to contact us.

J. Nathan & Terry Bearden, Rison, AR 71665

Our son, B.J. Poole, had it all - good grades, good looks, popularity, tremendous athletic ability and a bright future.  Add to that a beautiful, smart fiancée and everything should be perfect, right?  Wrong! 

B.J. was always what we described as “high maintenance” or “high-strung.”  He was very bright, opinionated, and articulate.  If he disagreed with something that happened at school (like another kid being picked on, an unevenly applied rule or punishment, etc.), B.J. was the first to stand up and speak his mind.  He was meticulous in everything he did.  He had to succeed.  Anything less than total success was utter failure.  We called him “Stat” because he could quote football and other sport statistics at will.  He was very opinionated, stubborn and easily frustrated but, for the most part, he kept it under control. 

He sailed through high school on the Honor Roll and was awarded such distinctions as “Athlete of the Year,”  3-time “Who’s Who Among American High School Students,” “All-District” in Cross Country and Track, “High Point Champion” at several area track meets (extremely rare and difficult for a distance runner) and 9-time Arkansas Junior Olympic Gold Medalist.  He ran the anchor leg of the Arkansas State Track Class AA 4x800m championship in 2001. He ran cross-country for his high school.  His team placed 2nd and 4th in the State Class AAA Cross Country Championship the 2 years he ran.  He competed in the National Junior Olympics Cross Country Meet in Chicago, placing in the middle of the pack of more than 300 racers.  In 2001, he received a partial scholarship to Bacone College in Muskogee, OK for track and cross-country.  That’s when the trouble began.

He was trying to maintain his grades, train and compete in cross-country, work part-time and see his fiancée – she lived about 3 hours away from Muskogee and he traveled to see her when he could.  He became increasingly stressed and began to talk of dropping out of school.  He said that it was just too much for him to handle.  We stressed the importance of a college education but allowed him to transfer to a community college in Fayetteville, AR where he would be in the same town as his fiancée.  While things weren’t perfect, B.J. and Jenny were happy until B.J.’s great grandmother died in June of 2002.  B.J. lost his job because he took off from work to travel home and attend her funeral – his boss was on vacation, which left B.J. in charge of the store.  Losing his job meant that he and Jennifer couldn’t afford to keep the house they were renting.  Jenny was working, too, but with both of them trying to go to school and work, it was too much.  They moved back home to southern Arkansas later that summer. 

B.J. was not happy about moving home and became increasingly angry and resentful.  We talked to him about his attitude and things seemed to be okay for a while.  He and Jenny had an old home that she had inherited but it needed a lot of work.  B.J. decided to drop school for a year and work full-time while Jenny worked full-time and went to college part-time.  He was working for the county road department when he got into a huge patch of poison ivy and was covered from head to toe with welts.  The doctor put him on a double round of corticosteroids to help.  He was out of work for 10 days and never really seemed to be the same after that.  He became even more easily angered.  He couldn’t relate to us why he was so angry.  That’s when I made my big mistake.  His attitude was straining our relationship with him, as well as his and Jenny’s relationship.  I acted as objectively as I could and supported his and Jenny’s decision that he should move back home with us while he got a handle on things.  I also told him about a website I had seen – www.effexorxr.com.  I had already visited the sight and was alarmed by the results from the answers I had entered into an online survey from my perspective on B.J.’s behalf about depression.  I asked B.J. to complete the survey for himself and the results were even worse that when I had answered for him.  He was urged to “seek professional help” for his problems.  I encouraged him to go to our local mental health facility and enlisted Jenny’s help in getting him to go.  He followed our advice and began seeing a psychologist.  He got to talk about his frustrations and his reactions to stress and obstacles. Things seemed to be getting better.  He was asked to keep a journal of his thoughts and feelings.  Then after a couple of months of talking to the therapist, she referred him to a psychiatrist at the main office of the mental health center which was in a neighboring county.  He said she told him that he had completed the “intake and assessment” process.  Now it was time to get down to “treatment.” 

B.J. was extremely upset when he came to my office after his first visit with the doctor.  He said that when he walked in, the doctor was raging at his receptionist for overbooking his schedule.  Apparently, he had lunch plans that B.J.’s appointment was interfering with.  B.J. told me that the doctor grabbed a stack of papers from his fax machine and began to read them over.  The papers were B.J.’s records from the psychologist.  After a couple of minutes, the doctor told B.J. that he was suffering from depression and handed him a large grocery bag full of samples of, ironically enough, Effexor XR and a sleep aid.  He told B.J. that it would take several weeks to know whether the medication was the right one for him and that they might have to switch brands if this one didn’t work.  He told him that it takes awhile for a person’s body to adjust to the drugs, but to be patient.  He scheduled another appointment for a week later and sent him out the door.  He put B.J. on a schedule that would increase his dosage from 75 mg per day to 300 mg per day over several weeks.  The sleep aid was for insomnia that the doctor said was a common side effect.  B.J. felt slighted by the lack of time and care that the doctor exhibited but said that he was going to take the medication because he wanted to be his old self again. 

From the very first dosage, B.J. was a different person.  His mood swings became much worse.  He would rant and rave at us, then not appear to remember what he had said.  He started binge drinking.  He started telling me of horrible nightmares and daydreams he was having.  Dreams of killing me, his step-dad and Jenny (not his sister for some reason); impulses to run into other vehicles head-on on the road.  I was, of course, alarmed.  I called the mental health center to express my concerns and was promptly told to mind my own business.  B.J. was an adult and it was none of my concern, she said.  She told me that he “had a number he could call” if he felt like he was in crisis.  I explained that he was telling me that they were trying to poison him and that he said he wasn’t going to go back.  She told me that I should call the police if I thought he was out of control.  No mother wants to call the police on her son, especially if he is not committing a crime. I was under the impression it was a problem adjusting to the medication that should lessen as his body became accustomed to the drugs – besides, during upswings, B.J. was telling me that he felt so much better and could “see clearly” what he had to do.  He said that he would go back to the counselor and he did.  He re-enrolled in college, got a new job and, for a few days, seemed to be doing better.  Then he freaked out again and it became a vicious cycle of ups and downs.  Anger and crying spells.  He was so confused.  Then – like magic – he would feel great again.  We would stay up all night…talking, crying and trying to figure out what to do.  Up, down, up, down.  It was a dizzying spiral. 

After much discussion…many all-night talks, B.J. agreed to find a job and re-enroll in college. He did this within a couple of days of agreeing to. Once again, I thought he had found a stable level. However, the night of September 2, 2003, he had a bad night again. We talked, cried, and talked some more. He said he was just so confused about everything. Sometimes he thought the medication was the only thing helping him maintain his sanity; other times he knew the medication was causing him to think about becoming a murderous monster. “When would it level off?” he begged of me. He told me how sorry he was for all the trouble he had caused. It all came to a tragic end the next day, September 3, 2003.  I had gone to an out-of-town meeting and came home about 3:30 p.m. with a headache.  I spoke to B.J. about how he was feeling – “Fine, I’ve got my head together now.  I know what I have to do to fix things.” were the last words he said to me.  I went to lie down for a while.  About an hour later, my husband woke me up – he couldn’t find B.J. (who should have left for work by 4:00 p.m.)  Our daughter told us she had seen B.J. petting our dogs in our yard and then walking towards our wooded acreage.  My husband ran to find him thinking that he had gone off to think and had lost track of time.  That’s when he saw it.  The rope we used to close one of our outbuildings had been tied from the inside.  He cut the rope and found our beautiful son hanging by a rope.  He was neatly dressed and shaved.  His work uniform was folded neatly and placed on the seat of his truck.  He had 21 suicide notes tucked into the waistband of his jeans. 

His memorial service was beautiful.  We played his favorite modern rock music…Godsmack, Stain’d…and “our song” Lynard Skynard’s “Simple Man” which I used to sing to him when he was little as he stood on my feet and we danced.  Many kids, parents and others he knew gave testimonial after testimonial about how B.J. had helped them deal with their problems…how B.J. would always stand up for the underdog…how B.J. had been an inspiration in so many ways. 

I had to find out why we lost him.   His journals spoke of having horrible thoughts after he started taking the Effexor…of how the pills made him feel numb and how he could tell when each dose was “wearing off” because those evil thoughts became very compelling.  He wrote in his journal that he wouldn’t ever be the kind of person his mind was telling him to be – violent, hateful, murderous.  He described vivid dreams of killing those closest to him – me, his step dad, Jennifer.  He stated that the medication had helped him see that he had to die to keep this from happening. 

I didn’t know that the drug companies’ data shows these drugs to be about as effective as a placebo. I didn’t know that there is no test to determine whether there is or the extent of the “chemical imbalance” the drug companies claim SSRI/SSNRI drugs treat.  I had never heard of “activation syndrome” – and obviously neither had the “professionals” I sent him to – but now I know that’s what happened to him.  The ever-increasing dosages of Effexor XR made him unable to function; it made him decide that suicide was the way to keep from becoming a monster.  Then I read of people on these drugs who had killed; people who described the same types of thoughts and dreams B.J. did; mothers who drown or cut the arms off their babies...children and teens killing classmates in school shootings while on these drugs.  Columbine.  Andrea Yates.  Christopher Pittman.  And I thanked God that we had only lost him to suicide and not to prison or the death chamber after a homicidal rampage.

I see people all around me who are taking these drugs. Some of those close to me (through personal and work relationships) have actually started taking these drugs despite information I have shared with them. The media will cover tragic stories like Christopher Pittman, Cody Posey, Andrea Yates, etc. – but once their trials are over, no one in the media puts the pieces of this puzzle together and demands to know why these tragedies keep occurring. No one questions the motives of the companies who keep selling obviously dangerous drugs. No one questions the competency of the doctors who prescribe them. Eventually, over the past few years, the FDA has taken steps to warn people about the effects of these drugs…first for children, then for adolescents, then during the beginning of treatment. It is time to recognize that the only way to prevent the side effects of these drugs is to ban them. We urge you to do so.

Terry Bearden
Mother of B.J. Poole
3-4-82 – 9-3-03
Effexor-XR Induced Suicide Victim
Rison, Arkansas


January 21, 2008
Honorable Senator Joseph J. Carraro
State Senator
State of New Mexico
Albuquerque, NM 87114

RE:  Senate Memorial 9, Study Antidepressants & Suicide,

Dear Sir:
I was recently informed that you have introduced the above measure and with all my heart applaud your action. 
The New York Times 17 Jan 2008 (http://www.nytimes.com/2008/01/17/health/17depress.html) details how some pharmaceuticals never published the results of about a third of the drug trials that they conducted so that they could win government approval.  The trials that they published were biased in favor of the drugs and did not provide the REAL overall picture of what the drugs were actually doing.
I understand that the political pressure that the pharmaceuticals apply to all politicians is great, but the future of the United States is in your hands.  Please do all you can to bring the truth to light.

Oliver Asato


To whom it may concern,
     I am writing this letter in support of Carmille Mike who lost her daughter to suicide last November. Given all the data and  existing evidence: A link exists between suicide and the use of SSRI anti-depressants.The madness of trying to modify behavior by medicating America's youth is insane. Behavior modification at the extreme end might (as a last resort) require a chemical component. But to give those children acting out normal everyday behaviors due to environmental stress, (unstable home environment), having to carry the burden of parental divorce, being raised by a single parent, dealing with same sex parental units, poverty, discrimination,  etc, is wrong. Given a child's growth and development pattern it's important to view behaviors associated with certain growth spurts and times of hormonal change.  Certain behaviors can almost be predicted as defined by adolescence. I encourage the state of New Mexico to establish a Commission for the purpose of investigating the link between anti-depressants and suicide. I speak in defense for all the innocent children who are being medicated with SSRI  anti-depressants who are not old enough to defend themselves. These drugs are dangerous.
    The side effects of SSRI drugs outweigh any possible benefits. Not only do these drugs increase the risk of suicide they also significantly "lower the threshold for seizure." Therefore if a child (or an adult) takes an SSRI, and they already have seizure then there is a good chance they will have more seizure. When SSRI drugs are given to a patient who has never had seizure: There is a high probability that a first time seizure will occur. The "seizure side effect" of SSRI drugs has not received much attention. SSRI drugs cause seizure is a true statement. It has scientifically been proven.  Consult any PDR or pharmaceutical "staff sheet" (produced by the drug manufacturer) and this fact is presented with emphasis "as a major factor to consider when prescribing SSRI to patients." There are other negative side effects associated with SSRI durgs. 
   SSRI drugs also shut down the body's normal metabolism.  SSRI drugs change the speed at which the neuron crosses the synapse whereby altering the "mapping sequence" of the brain. Give an SSRI to a toddler(or any growing child) whose brain is still physiologically developing and the brain will learn to fire its neurons at the frequency as directed by the SSRI. The child's brain will learn to function (neuron fire) under the direction of the SSRI chemical map. If the child sustains treatment with SSRI drugs for any significant length (how much time has not been studied yet)  of time then when the SSRI is removed there is a chance that the neurons will not know how to fire properly on their own.  Brain development under the firing sequence of the SSRI mapping code might will inhibit normal function of the neuron once the SSRI is suspended. It would seem that there would be a strong tendency of a drug dependent brain for life. After years, months, or even days of treatment in the very young there would be no way to properly encode the drugged neurons whose physiological development had been altered while taking the SSRI. SSRI drugs also have the capability to alter ones vision. The SSRI can cause significant changes in both range of and field of vision. I hope that the New Mexico Commission is established. I speak from personal experience. I was prescribed SSRI drugs for seven years.
    I went from having no seizures: At the end of seven years of SSRI treatment to having convulsions to the point of near death. During the sixth year I was taking combinations of three anti-epileptic drugs to stop the ever increasing convulsions. I had a doctor tell me that it was the "SSRI drugs making me have the seizure." I'd have never known what was causing me to be so sick with seizure. I also ballooned from 124 to 283 pounds during that seven year period of taking SSRI drugs. My vision was badly altered. By the end of seven years of taking SSRI drugs I was wearing coke-bottle thick glasses. I stopped taking the SSRI drugs in March of 2003.
   I've lost half my body weight. My body regained it's original (normal) metabolic function. My vision has also regained its original 20/20 in one eye and slightly less in the other. I don't have anymore convulsions. Although it has been a slow gradual process with loosing the seizures. My brain still has a tendency to remember the SSRI firing map. Over the years the seizure has  become less and less frequent.  I believe that perhaps sometime during the next five years my brain will totally forget any instruction it received under the SSRI map and completely  be void of any seizure activity. At the time of SSRI drugging I was thirty-six years old. My brain was completely physiologically developed. As I mentioned above, my brain still has moments when it reverts back (remembers) the SSRI firing map. I have seizure activity because of it. With emphasis on the very young taking SSRI drugs. My brain was able to remember its old firing sequence before the SSRI map was introduced. That is because my brain was already fully developed at the onset of SSRI treatment. But say I'd been age five and taken the drugs till age twelve. The probability of my brain being able to regain prior brain function would probably be impossible. This due to the fact that from the age of five to twelve my brain would have "grownup" developed under the direction of the SSRI map. The SSRI map would become the dominant learned behavior of my brain. Without the drug the neurons in my brain would fire haphazardly, not knowing what direction to follow. This would make me an SSRI drug dependent for life.Please take the time to investigate the lethal SSRI.
    I emplore the state of New Mexico to lead the nation. Do what is right for the sake of  humanity and the future generations of America. The very fabric of this nation depends on it. This is a serious issue that needs to be addressed. The possible consequences of the current "mass drugging of Americas youth" might very well cripple this great nation. The repercussions of such horrendous acts will be tragic.
Linda Purcell-Sullivan


Hi - First of all, I am truly sorry about the loss of your daughter.  It's just another senseless tragedy.

My name is Kim Witczak.  I live in Minneapolis, MN and am writing in support of your push for Sarina's law.    It's needed and am hoping that New Mexico can set example for other states.   

There has long been a link between antidepressants and suicide but kept from the public for many years.  Unfortunately, our family learned the hard way.  In August 2003, my husband of almost 10 years, Tim (aka Woody) Witczak, was found dead hanging from the rafters of our garage.  Woody, age 37, died of Zoloft-induced suicide.  He was not depressed nor did he have any other mental illness.  Five weeks earlier he was given Zoloft by his general physician for insomnia.  Woody had just started a new job as Vice President of Sales with a start up company and was having trouble sleeping which is not uncommon with entrepreneurs. 

His death made no sense and we started to research the only thing that had changed for Woody during this extremely short time...Zoloft.  Our battle for Woody has taken us to the FDA, Congress, and the courts.  We also established www.woodymatters.com to help inform and educate others on the dangers of antidepressants.  In March 2007, I testified before the US Senate and told Woody's story and the lessons it holds when Congress was working on FDA/drug safety reform.

In my lawsuit against Pfizer, we were able to get internal FDA and Pfizer documents made public that show the suicide risk was known since the late 80s.   For years, these were classified as confidential and argued by Pfizer and other drug companies as trade secret.   In fact, if you are interested in seeing any of them, please let me know. 

I strongly support your efforts.  Please keep me posted as I'd love to help in anyway possible.

All the best,

Kim Witczak
www.woodymatters.com -- Using Woody's life and death to save others.  Be smart.  Be informed.


I strongly support investigation of antidepressants and their effects.

Dr. Linda Havir
Minnetonka, Minnesota 55345


I am writing this letter to urge you to support Senator Carraro's Memorial SM009 to establish a commission to investigate and make recommendations on antidepressant drugs.

I am a survivor of Zoloft. In 2004 I was prescribed Zoloft and given sample packs by my doctor with no attached warning label. The first time I saw a warning label on any drug was the 4th day on Zoloft, when I was already incarcerated in a psychiatric hospital. If I had been given any warning of what Zoloft could do and its effects on my nursing baby, I would never have taken the drugs. I was simply trusting my doctor when I took my first pill. I asked about its safety for nursing and he said "it will make your baby happy too."

I had no idea that Zoloft causes suicide or homicide when I took it. I had no idea that babies who have been exposed to Zoloft in breast milk have suffered severe side effects like coma and seizures.

The fact that doctors hand these drugs to patients with no hesitation, and in fact push them on otherwise reluctant patients, including children, is completely unacceptable.

I experienced a dose-dependent worsening of suicidal and homicidal urges on Zoloft. By the third day I was on it, I hallucinated  and saw myself throwing my newborn baby down the stairs. Doctors told me to give it time to work but each time I increased my dose, everything got so much worse. People claimed I had PPD with psychotic features. But when I got off the drug, I got better. I was also told I should not have any more children because I had a 90% chance of a recurrence of PPD. However I have had a second baby and he is 16 months old now, and I have not had PPD. The reason my doctor gave me the medication in the first place was because a nurse had recommended it to him. He didn't even talk to me about my problems. If he had taken the time to listen, he would have known I was anxious because my newborn had suffered a life-threatening choking incident caused by undigestable formula which he tried to vomit. My doctor could have told me to go home and breastfeed him and cosleep and get some rest but instead he gave me pills.

I was fortunate that I had supervision for several months from my mom. Many moms have no support whatsoever and become depressed for the first time when they are taking care of infants. Instead of offering them support, our society likes to get off the "easy way" by giving them pills. But pills do not make a mother's life easier, and they pose a great danger to her and her child.

The link between antidepressants and suicide and homicide has already been established by drug trials. If you subpoena all of the data from drug companies or take the time to read the available literature that has already been written about the SSRIs and other antidepressants, I believe you will conclude in your recommendations that these drugs should be banned. You have the capacity to require prescribing restrictions in the state of New Mexico and you also have the ability to influence federal policymakers.

Your schools and your hospitals and malls and ski mountains are not safe as long as you allow these nightmare drugs to remain on the market. I urge you to do the right thing. You can review my websites: www.uniteforlife.org and www.chaada.org for more information, or you can contact me personally at amy@uniteforlife.org

Please let me know what I can do to help the commission.

You may want to look at the following links for more information:






Amy Philo
Zoloft Survivor and mother of two boys


Attn: NM Legislature,

I support SM9 as Sarina's Voice Memorial Act

Psychotropic drugs administered to my beautiful 15 year old daughter Misty Angel Trantham were a direct cause of her death. On August 8th 2006 I found my daughter laying face down, dead on the floor of her bedroom. Having been in some behavioral type trouble at her new school being suspended several occasions and eventually expelled. She was referred by the school to a juvenile judge whom ordered her into a psychiatric treatment facility where she was treated with SSRI drugs. During her intuitional process she was placed in a long term treatment program which lasted a total of approximately 7 months. During those months she gained 40 lbs the smile on her face gradually diminished and she tried to elope several times from this psychiatric facility. After rejecting oral medication offered by staff and making several elopement attempts. The once free spirited, fun loving person with no sick days before these medications. Started changing in many ways becoming confused, disorientated, angry and even showed signs of suicidal indention's. Angel was subjected to injections with the drugs Haldol and Thorazine on several occasions. After growing weary of the injections she finally surcum to taking the oral prescriptions which consisted of Risperdol, Zoloft, Depakote, Zyprexa, Clonodine just to name a few. According to record she was subjected to 18 different medications over 7 months. Diagnosis included Depression and ADHD. There is no doubt in my mind and according to professional reports the SSRI drugs caused her death. These psychotropic medications are dangerous and lethal as was the situation with my Baby Girl. The affects of these drugs are terrible she went from a fun loving, happy, healthy, spontaneous, intelligent, life loving, free spirited child who laughed and smiled all the time. To being labeled as a mentally retarded person whom could not even attend to her basic needs before her death without assistance. Angel endured horrible neurological side effects often called extra pyramidal symptoms and eventually dying from the whole experience. Her side effects consisted of tremors, spasms of the neck muscles, fidgeting, drooling, and muscular stiffness to name a few. Psychiatrists often prescribe another type of drug to counteract the side effects of Haldol and Thorazine in doing so they used the drug Cogentin that produced it’s own side effects in my daughters case. Those side effects consisted of confusion and memory loss, impairment in bladder and bowel function she had to wear adult dippers in the end. The drugs can also impair the body's ability to regulate its own temperature Angel in the last days was less tolerable of the heat. Especially during any type of exercise for even 15 minuets or would become excessively agitated. When she was released I took her to her life long family doctor whom referred her to a psychiatric friend of his. Neither doctors recognized her deteriorating condition as life threatening. In fact her family physician stated in his report she was having a reaction to the medications she was sent home from the psychiatric facility with. The psychiatrist on the other hand whom had seen her just a year prior stated she was having a neurological condition caused by the medications during her stay at the facility. He went on to state that she now resembled and was acting as a mentally retarded person even though his history in the past evaluation of Angel showed her to be of at least average intelligence. As a mother I was begging for help but even the doctors seem to be uneducated as to the serious effects of these drugs. Children are our future and SSRI drugs are dangerous and fatal like as with my daughters situation I'm well aware. She started being treated for ADHD and Depression and ended up losing her life. There should be a protocol that would prevent overlooking the possibility that a patients' agitation and discomfort may be caused by these medications. Better yet these drugs should never be used period they are life changing even if a person survives their use. That day I did not just lose my child I lost my best friend, my hopes, dreams, faith in medical professionals and most importantly a part of myself, my life will never be the same. All her life I protected her from the harmful things of the world including street drugs never knowing prescription drugs that were supposed to help actually would kill her. You can not imagine how it feels for a mother to pick her 15 year old daughter up from the floor dead. Something must be done to protect us, our children and our families from devastation of this nature. My daughter never did anything to harm anyone she would give or do anything she could for anyone and believed in peace. From the day 9-11 happened to her last journal entry months before her death. She mentioned how sad she was for all the people affected including soldiers and their families. We could not pass a fund rasier event or donation station without her giving freely of her own money. She would give you a hug, learn your name and the name of all your children before she left your presence. Love surrounded her in every circle of her life, I assure you the price is to high to accept what is handed out in a little bottle as the cure all. If Angel were with us physically right now she would be smiling with that special twinkle in her eyes. Asking you please don't allow others to be tormented with the fate that SSRI drugs cause.

Mary S. Wilson
Mommy of Misty Angel Trantham 12/01/90 - 08/08/06


New Mexico Legislature

05 Entrada Celedon y Nestora

Santa Fe, NM 87506 

Need I Say How Urgent It Is That This Memorial Get Passed

Just Read Below!

41 School Shooting That We Are Aware Of To Date

Man on Lexapro planned to eat 10 year old after killing her

Mother on ANTI-DEPRESSANTS puts 3 month old in dryer 

EFFEXOR possible link when Andrea Yates drowned her 5 children

Mother on ZOLOFT drowns 1 year old son 


16 year old on MEDICATION FOR DEPRESSION had no history of violence when he raped and killed his sister 

Man on medication for depression sets fire killing 7 

Therapist on ANTI-DEPRESSANTS stabs girlfriend

O. J. Simpson on Double Dose of PROZAC at Time of Murders 

Father murders 5 year old twin daughters; he was recently put on PAXIL 

Christopher Pittman was involuntarily intoxicated by Zoloft when he killed his grandparents 

14 year-old girl could be one of the youngest people to ever be sentenced to life in prison; she was on PROZAC. 

Woman on PROZAC kills her 87 year-old mother by biting her face neck and arms 20 times.

Woman on MEDICATION FOR DEPRESSION sets moving car on fire killing herself and 2 kids.

Joseph Wesbecker killed 8 fellow employees at the Standard Gravure plant and then himself - PROZAC 

Angry lottery worker kills 4, self in Connecticut while on LUVOX

Mother on MEDICATION FOR DEPRESSION sets two small children and self on fire


Pro Wrestler kills family then self while on Prozac 

"A woman, apparently suffering from depression, set herself and her three children ablaze at Pathan ki Chali in Maninagar. According to police, the woman Shanaz Bano was also under medication for depression."

Mother under medication for depression poured kerosene on herself and on her three sleeping children and then set them on fire

Man jumps from 50ft balcony with this 2 and 6 year olds. He took a cocktail of anti-depressants and alcohol shortly before.

Experts say antidepressant drugs cause suicides instead of preventing them!

All of these drugs by reducing 5HIAA serotonin levels should, therefore, produce any or all of the listed behaviors associated with low 5HIAA serotonin levels, ie: suicide, arson, violence, alcoholism, depression, insomnia, impulsive behavior, etc. These are many of the symptoms which patients are encouraged to take these drugs to alleviate. This has been a most incredible deception. Whatever the reason for patients, many physicians, the FDA, Congress, any of us, to have been kept in dark about the critical similarity of these antidepressant drugs to the psychedelic drugs and their potential to induce these behaviors is absolutely inexcusable. It is absolutely imparative that we get this SM9 Memorial passed; which we would like to be Sarina's Memorial and Task Force. It will take a lot of hard work from great people like Senator Joseph Carraro and Camille Milke in order to eventually have all Suicidal-Causing Anti-Depressants Abolished but I know in the end it will be worth it.

Sarina was my best friend and now she is gone and no thanks is given to the anti-depressants she was on.

Here is a startling fact:

"Many physicians tell their patients that they are suffering from a chemical imbalance, despite the reality that there are no tests available for assessing the chemical status of a living person's brain... The evidence does not support any of the biochemical theories of mental illness."  
-Elliot Valenstein, PhD, neuropsychologist

We mine as well be playing Russian Roulet with our kids and ourselves.

The only thing known to man wither it be natural or man made that is known and proven to increase Seratonin and Dopamine levels at the same time is EFA's Essential Fatty Acids. Why not give fish oil to people first instead of Anti Depressants to see if they work. I can tell you the reason they don't its called $$$$.

My Story:

The very first time I took Zoloft while in Cape Town South Africa I litterally felt like I had taken Ecstacy. My skin felt good to touch I couldn't stop smiling and my eyes were very dialated. I expressed to my aunt and uncle how much I like the stuff and they said "see as long as its prescribed by the doctors its ok to take when its bad is when you take things illegally." When I went back to the states I was so brain washed to believe that everyone that I knew who took drugs had to be on anti depressants. It was the cure and I was going to tell them about it. Just before I came to the states I looked in my Aunts email which she had left open and read a very lengthy letter that my Aunt had writen to the Psychiatrist that I was going to while out there. In the letter they listed all of the problems that I had and try to say were they stemed from. According to them I had Bi-Polar disorder, ADHD, Manic Depression severe Anxiety and some of the most off the wall dreams they had ever heard of among other things. After reading this I thought to myself and said "I never knew that I had this many problems overall my life has been pretty happy up until now but now its like all I am focused on is getting over all of these problems. I was constantly focused on the problems, thats all my life was anymore. It really changed me from the inside out because I believed everything they said and told me at the time. After being on the Zoloft for about 7-8 months and being back in the states now it wasn't working as well as it use to. I couldn't laugh even if I tried and im not joking imagine not being able to laugh at something it felt like it was to hard to get the laugh out. On top of that I coudn't cry and believe me I tried and wanted to so bad but I couldn't and I would only speak a few words throughout the entire day I was the best definition of a Zomby that there was I think.I made up my mind that I was much happier before I ever started taking Zoloft and I was go ing to stop taking it. Just before that I told myself that I wold find a cure for my depression within 6 months by reading and education myself on the subject as much as possible. If I couldn't find happiness again I would take my life because better to be dead than to feel the way I felt day in and day out every pain staking second of it was tearing me apart. Shortly after making this decision I quit taking Zoloft cold turkey and later my doctor told me that I was lucky to be alive quiting cold turkey with the dose I was on it could have literally killed me and felt like it was. For 2 weeks striaght I cried non stop in my room. I cried so much that when I woke from what little sleep I got I would be crying before I was even aware of being concious. Its like all of my emotions were held up in a dam and relaased when I stopped taking the drug. It took months before I started to feel even remotely normal those months felt like years. I remember telling my dad to hold my shoulders and look me in the eyes everyday and tell me that one day I would feel normal again. I just needed to hear it from someone that did feel normal because I was in such a hole that I couldn't see the light of day even for a second or two. Quiting Zoloft as abruptly as I did was one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life. Our doctors are making people such as my uncle and aunt believe that they will have to be on anti depressants the rest of their life and he has been takin prozac for over 15 years now believing this. We have lived all up until the last 30 years or so of human existance without taking antidepressants and now all of the sudden we need them. In my opinion anti depressants are a slightly different form of ecstacy it is a man made designer drug that is very powerful. I ended up finding a cure for my depression it consisted of three things Quting anti depressants, my faith in Christ and Essential Fatty Acids or Fish Oil. During my endevours to find a cure I found somthing that truely worked as far as a supplement goes. The problem with anti depressants is this. They either effect your Dopamine or Seratonin one or the other not both. When your Dopamine goes up chemically with an antidepressant your Sartonin goes down creating an imbalance. Conversley when your Seratonin goes up your Dopamine goes down. Lets abolish these durgs for good and promote things like Essential Fatty Acids that really help the problem with no side effects. 

Blake Ballew

Best Friend Of Sarina Angel 


Last year I was prescribed Lexapro, a newer antidepressant after telling a Nurse Practitioner I was dealing with a lot of stress. I never gave her any indication that I was clinically depressed because I was not. Within five minutes, I had a handful of samples of the Lexapro. I decided to take them and within a week, I was feeling emotionally numb, could not concentrate on school work, and eventually was overcome with such a rage that I almost attacked my husband with a fork, of all things! This rage is so indescribable. Thankfully, I still had enough wits about me to realize that it was the Lexapro. I weaned down and experienced extreme pain in the back of my head. Other side effects included vivid nightmares and jerking of my body. I realized I was experiencing what is called akathasia. It is an inner restlessnes that develops from taking the drugs and can get so extreme, it causes homicidal and suicidal tendencies. I am 60 years old and ironically I was studying to complete my degree in Psychology when I took the Lexapro. I would not take these drugs again and certainly not give them to my children after what I experienced. I am fine now without the need for these dangerous drugs. I have never had that rage again since quitting the Lexapro. These drugs have caused many deaths by suicide and homicide. I am greatful I survived without hurting myself or others. Please, pass the Bill that will become Sarina's Law. Enough children have died.

Cheryl Froehlich


January 18, 2008

New Mexico Legislature

In regards to SM9 Memorial: This is something that I am behind 100%.  I do believe that doctors are to quick to prescribe medication as a “easy fix” and they are not considering the after effects of these medications.  A way that this has affected me personally other than being a close family friend to Camille Milke and her daughter Sarina, I had taken my son to the doctor and had asked about him being tested for possible ADHD.  And I was told to do a 2 week trial of Concerta.  I had my doubts, but like many I trusted what our doctor was advising us to do.  My son only took the medication for 5 days.  With in that 5 day period he was a wreck.  He was sad all time, and not his happy self that every 7 year old should be.  I immediately stopped the medication.  Given this was not an anti-depressant but still something that I felt the Doctor should have tried other options or had my son properly tested before putting him on such medication.  I am in favor of having this Task Force bearing Sarina’s name and eventually being known as Sarina’s Law.  It breaks my heart to know that if her Doctors would have done some more researched and listened to Sarina and had truly wanted to help her, that she may still be here today.  I would like to thank Senator Joseph Carraro for all his efforts and support in this matter.


Frances Sedillo
Mother of 4


To the New Mexico Legislature,

First of all I would like to thank Senator Joseph Carraro for working so hard to support and launch the SM9 Memorial. Please consider renaming it Sarina's Memorial and Task Force.
It is imperative that the Memorial is passed ASAP, and that we continue to work toward the ban of all antidepressants that have been linked to suicide. I would like to see this called "Sarina's Memorial and Task Force", and have it eventually become "Sarina's Law".
My daughter, Laurie Wilson, died by suicide as a result, I believe and intend to prove, of SSRI (selective seratonin reuptake inhibitor) antidepressants.  Please, do all you can to avoid any more unnecessary deaths.

Thank you,

Debbie Goodger, Laurie Wilson's Mom
12/14/71 - 11/08/07
Smiling down from Heaven !


To Whom It May Concern:

There are just too many people dying these days of prescription drugs.  Having lost my daughter-in-law, and presently raising her child, the need to abolish the prescribed psychotic drugs is immediate.  Most of these are creating more depression than helping.  Years ago the FDA tested the drugs thoroughly and the drugs were not put on the market until they were satisfied that they were not harmful.  Because today, everything is rushed, testing of new drugs do not go through a thorough process therefore there are more side affects not established during the minimal testing done.

The United States was, at one time, the leader in pharmaceutical studies but today, the other world nations are ahead of us.  Why do we make drugs that are going to inhibit one's behavior?  Why are there so many side affects?  Why are these not explained to patients who receive these narcotics?

Teenagers, young adults and even seniors are affected by these drugs.  They are prescribed freely and are easily available.  When the doctors overprescribe several different mind altering drugs at the same time, most of them counteract with each other thus causing different reactions.

We are living in difficult times and depression and anxiety seem to be in every family.  It has touched most Americans one way of another.  It is time to stop using us as guinea pigs and start treating the problems.  Abolish these suicidal drugs.


Barbara Lewis
Port St. Lucie, FL


Dear Legislator:

For far too long, children have been seen as profit centers for the pharmaceutical industry.

Yet children are our most valuable resource.  They are our hopes for a world far better than that which we have left them.  And as we grow old and weak, it is our children we will count on to help our senior years indeed be golden.  If we continue to ruin the lives of our children with toxic pharmaceuticals, we will reap what we sow.

Please support Senate Memorial 9, a first step toward ending the horrors imposed upon our children in pursuit of the Almighty Dollar.

Thank you,


Terry L. Clark
Arcata, California  95521


To:  NM Legislature

Special thanks to Senator Joseph Cararro, for taking this issue into concern.  I am writing in regards to the SM9 Memorial; regarding Sarina's Memorial and Task Force.  With the information we are discovering more and more, I believe it would beneficial to have this passed so that no other people, young or old, would ever have to go thru what my friend has gone thru, when she lost her child.
N. Savinelli


Dear Camille,

I support your efforts and commend your courage, in trying to get an investigation into the connection between psychiatric drugs and violence/suicide.

It’s about time we stopped this runaway train of pharmaceutical solutions for every aspect of the human condition, and the resulting worsening of the same problems these drugs are supposed to alleviate. 

It’s time we connected the dots.

Most sincerely,

Anita Garvey


Dear Senator Carraro, This is just a note to express my appreciation for helping out with getting the petition on the floor for SM9 and to have these Anti Depressant drugs removed from the market.  These drugs are a ruination of this country and our future.

Again, thank you for all your hard work in saving our nation.

AnnMarie Salazar - AMS Financial Services


Christopher Heimarck 
Moorhead, MN  56560 

To:  Sarina's Voice, action against anti-depressant drugs

Date:  January 21, 2008

I believe so called "anti-depressant" drugs 

should be outlawed. 

They increase the risk of suicide. 

Several shooters have been revealed to be on "anti-depressants." 

These are risky and dangerous drugs and they have a negative effect 

on society, when people commit suicide, when people murder others, 

we should not have to take that risk as a society. 

These "anti-depressant" drugs are a misnomer.  They do not cure depression. 

I believe they should be made illegal and these drug dealers, the psychiatrists, 

who push these dangerous drugs on young children, should be put behind bars. 

Christopher Heimarck


Attn: New Mexico Legislature

I am writing this letter with the highest hopes and support that SM9 (Senate Memorial 9) will become Sarina's Voice Memorial Act.  I am asking that you please vote YES to pass this memorial, and please do it with Sarina’s name attached to it. We lost Sarina on 10-28-07 , her death was caused by suicide  causing anti-depressant, it should have never happened, and by passing this bill you WILL be saving lives. Thank you for your time.

Mercedes A.Duran
Albuquerque NM 87109


I am writing in support SM9 (Senate Memorial 9) to become Sarina's Voice Memorial Act. This is an extremely important issue with so many being affected. Even as I sit back and think of my own family and personal friends I am appalled by the numbers. To give you an overview of the adverse effects below are the last two brief presentations I made to the FDA on antidepressants.

Ann Blake Tracy, Ph.D., Executive Director,
International Coalition For Drug Awareness
Website: www.drugawareness.org & www.ssristories.com
Author: Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? - Our Serotonin Nightmare
& CD or audio tape on safe withdrawal: "Help! I Can't Get
Off My Antidepressant!"
Order Number: 800-280-0730
E-mail: atracyphd1@aol.com
Cell: 801-209-1800

Dr. Ann Blake Tracy's September 13, 2004 to the FDA

I am Ann Blake Tracy, PhD, head of the International Coalition for Drug Awareness. I am the author of Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? - Our Serotonin Nightmare and have testified in court cases involving antidepressants for 12 1/2 years. The last 15 years of my life have been devoted full time to researching and writing about SSRI antidepressants.

Research on serotonin has been clear from the very beginning that the most damaging thing that could be done to the serotonin system would be to impair one?s ability to metabolize serotonin. Yet that is exactly how SSRI antidepressants exert their effects.

For decades research has shown that impairing serotonin metabolism will produce migraines, hot flashes, pains around the heart, difficulty breathing, a worsening of bronchial complaints, tension and anxiety which appear from out of nowhere, depression, suicide - especially very violent suicide, hostility, violent crime, arson, substance abuse, psychosis, mania, organic brain disease, autism, anorexia, reckless driving, Alzheimer?s, impulsive behavior with no concern for punishment, and argumentative behavior.

How anyone ever thought it would be "therapeutic" to chemically induce these reactions is beyond me. Yet, these reactions are exactly what we have witnessed in our society over the past decade and a half as a result of the widespread use of these drugs.

In fact we even have a whole new vocabulary as a result with terms such as "road rage," "suicide by cop," "murder/suicide," "going postal," "false memory syndrome," "school shooting," "bi-polar" - every third person you meet anymore - along with the skyrocketing rates of antidepressant-induced diabetes and hypoglycemia.

Can you remember two decades ago when depressed people used to slip away quietly to kill themselves rather than killing everyone around them and then themselves as they do while taking SSRI antidepressants?

A study out of the University of Southern California in 1996 looked at a group of mutant mice in an experiment that had gone terribly wrong. These genetically engineered mice were the most violent creatures they had ever witnessed. They were born lacking the MAO-A enzyme which metabolizes serotonin. As a result their brains were awash in serotonin. This excess serotonin is what the researchers determined was the cause for this extreme violence. Antidepressants produce the same end result as they inhibit the metabolism of serotonin.

These are extremely dangerous drugs that should be banned as similar drugs have been banned in the past.

As a society we once thought LSD and PCP to be miracle medications with large margins of safety in humans. We have never seen drugs so similar to LSD and PCP as these SSRI antidepressants. All of these drugs produce dreaming during periods of wakefulness. It is believed that the high serotonin levels over stimulate the brain stem leading to a lack of muscle paralysis during sleep thus allowing the patient to act out the dreams or nightmares they are having. The world witnessed that clearly in the Zoloft-induced murder-suicide of comedian Phil Hartman and his wife, Brynn.

Connecticut witnessed the Prozac-induced case of Kelly Silk several years ago. This young mother attacked her family with a knife, then set the house on fire killing all but her 8 year old daughter who ran to the neighbors. As she stood bleeding and screaming for help she explained, "Help! My mommy is having a nightmare!"

Out of the mouths of babes we will understand these nightmares for what they are. She understood that this was something her mother would do ONLY in a nightmare, never in reality.

This is known as a REM Sleep Behavior Disorder. In the past it was known mainly as a drug withdrawal state, but the largest sleep facility in the country has reported that 86% of the cases they are diagnosing are patients on antidepressants.

Because this was known in the past as a condition manifesting mainly in drug withdrawal you should see how dangerous the withdrawal state from these drugs will prove to be. That is why it is so critical to make sure patients are weaned EXTREMELY slowly so as to avoid ANY chance of going into a withdrawal state

Dr. Ann Blake Tracy's December 13, 2006 to the FDA

Ann Blake-Tracy, PhD, head of the International Coalition for Drug Awareness, author of Prozac: Panacea or Pandora? & Our Serotonin Nightmare. For 15 years I have testified in court cases involving antidepressants. The last 17 years of my life have been devoted to researching, writing, and lecturing about these drugs.

Two of my nieces in their early 20's, a decade apart, attempted suicide on antidepressants, the first on Prozac, the second just a month ago on Wellbutrin.

Due to time constraints I refer you to my September, 2004 testimony on the damaging effects of inhibiting serotonin metabolism - the very mode of action of antidepressants. Impairing serotonin metabolism results in a multitude of symptoms including suicide, violent crime, mania and psychosis. Suicidal ideation is, without question, associated with these drugs.

Rosie Meysenburg, Sara Bostock and I have collected and posted 1200 news articles documenting many exaggerated acts of violence against self or others at www.drugawareness.org with a direct link to www.ssristories.com

Beyond suicidal ideation we have mania/bipolar increasing dramatically. Antidepressants have always been known to trigger both.

According to the Pharmaceutical Business Review in the last 11 years alone, the number of people in the U.S. with "bipolar" disorder has increased by 4.8 million.

Dr. Malcolm Bowers of Yale, found in the late 90's over 200,000 people yearly are hospitalized with antidepressant-induced manic psychosis. They also point out that most go unrecognized as medication-induced, remain un hospitalized, and a threat to themselves and others.

What types of threats from manias?

Pyromania: A compulsion to start fires

Kleptomania: A compulsion to embezzle, shoplift, commit robberies

Dipsomania: An uncontrollable urge to drink alcohol

Nymphomania and erotomania: Sexual compulsions - a pathologic preoccupation with sexual fantasies or activities

Child sex abuse has increased dramatically with even female teachers going manic on these drugs and seducing students. The head of the sex abuse treatment program for Utah estimated 80% of sex crime perpetrators were on antidepressants at the time of the crime. While Karl Von Kleist, an ex-LAPD officer and leading polygraph expert estimated 90% - strong evidence of manic sexual compulsions that demand attention.

Diabetes has skyrocketed, has been linked to antidepressants, and blood sugar imbalances have long been suspected as the cause of mania or bipolar. Anyone who has witnessed someone in insulin shock would see the striking similarity to a violent reaction to an antidepressant.

If there has been any increase in suicide since the black box warning it is due to doctors not knowing how to get patients off these drugs safely.

Clearly far too many lives are being destroyed in various ways by these drugs


Dear Camille,
I just wanted to let you know I support you all the way with what you are doing to right the horrible wrong in your daughter's death.  I salute you for this. 

If you want more help, I'd suggest you go to www.cchr.org or www.fightforkids.org.   Citizen's Commission on Human Rights is an organization that has been speaking out for years, since 1969 I believe, to expose psychiatry and their barbaric treatments for what they are.  Keep your eye open for tv ads that will be out soon en masse to accomplish this in a massive fashion.  May we do away not only with the mind-altering drugs, but also the practice of psychiatry.

Best wishes,
Monika Biddle


Dear Senators,

My cousin Sarina can no longer speak, so we must!
I SUPPORT  SM9 ( Senate Memorial 9) to become Sarina's Voice Memorial Act. 
Thank You Senator Joseph Carraro for introducing this bill, and to all the Senators who vote YES to pass this memorial. I know  this will become
" SARINA'S LAW".  Her voice will be heard, and lives can be saved. 

Thank You,
Dawn Corvino
Brooklyn, New York



I SUPPORT SM9 to become Sarina's Voice Memorial Act.
These drugs are turning our children into Killers and Victims of Suicide.
All Senators need to vote Yes along with Senator Joseph Carraro to pass this Bill and attach Sarina's name to it, so it could be called " SARINA'S LAW "
Thank You
Joe Corvino
Brooklyn, New York


January 21, 2008

New Mexico Legislature
Santa Fe, NM

To whom it may concern:

This letter represents my support of  SM9 (Senate Memorial 9), and of naming it Sarina's Voice Memorial Act..

I am writing to respectfully ask the Senators of the State of New Mexico to please vote "yes," passing this Memorial.  It is urgent to pass this Memorial so necessary steps can continue in the study of psychotropic drugs, how they're prescribed and the possible restrictions of who prescribes them.

I would also like to thank Senator Joseph Carraro for his hard work and diligence towards supporting and executing this Memorial.  I include my appreciation with the appreciation of many who have lost loved ones to suicides caused by anti-depressants.  His dedication to this cause has been crucial and we thank him.


Elisa M. Pignato


This letter is being written to urge the lawmakers to further
investigate the link between antidepressants and suicide.

Although there is a Black Box warning for those age 24 and under in
relation to antidepressants and suicide, we need a Black Box for ALL
age groups.

Thank you for your consideration.


Rosie Meysenburg
Assistant National Director:  Prozac Survivors Support Group   
Texas Director:  International Coalition for Drug
Awareness:  www.drugawareness.org
Moderator:  http://www.ssristories.com


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