Blake Ballew -

The very first time I took Zoloft while in Cape Town South Africa I litterally felt like I had taken Ecstacy. My skin felt good to touch I couldn't stop smiling and my eyes were very dialated. I expressed to my aunt and uncle how much I like the stuff and they said "see as long as its prescribed by the doctors its ok to take when its bad is when you take things illegally." When I went back to the states I was so brain washed to believe that everyone that I knew who took drugs had to be on anti depressants. It was the cure and I was going to tell them about it. Just before I came to the states I looked in my Aunts email which she had left open and read a very lengthy letter that my Aunt had writen to the Psychiatrist that I was going to while out there. In the letter they listed all of the problems that I had and try to say were they stemed from. According to them I had Bi-Polar disorder, ADHD, Manic Depression severe Anxiety and some of the most off the wall dreams they had ever heard of among other things. After reading this I thought to myself and said "I never knew that I had this many problems overall my life has been pretty happy up until now but now its like all I am focused on is getting over all of these problems. I was constantly focused on the problems, thats all my life was anymore. It really changed me from the inside out because I believed everything they said and told me at the time. After being on the Zoloft for about 7-8 months and being back in the states now it wasn't working as well as it use to. I couldn't laugh even if I tried and im not joking imagine not being able to laugh at something it felt like it was to hard to get the laugh out. On top of that I coudn't cry and believe me I tried and wanted to so bad but I couldn't and I would only speak a few words throughout the entire day I was the best definition of a Zomby that there was I think.I made up my mind that I was much happier before I ever started taking Zoloft and I was go ing to stop taking it. Just before that I told myself that I wold find a cure for my depression within 6 months by reading and education myself on the subject as much as possible. If I couldn't find happiness again I would take my life because better to be dead than to feel the way I felt day in and day out every pain staking second of it was tearing me apart. Shortly after making this decision I quit taking Zoloft cold turkey and later my doctor told me that I was lucky to be alive quiting cold turkey with the dose I was on it could have literally killed me and felt like it was. For 2 weeks striaght I cried non stop in my room. I cried so much that when I woke from what little sleep I got I would be crying before I was even aware of being concious. Its like all of my emotions were held up in a dam and relaased when I stopped taking the drug. It took months before I started to feel even remotely normal those months felt like years. I remember telling my dad to hold my shoulders and look me in the eyes everyday and tell me that one day I would feel normal again. I just needed to hear it from someone that did feel normal because I was in such a hole that I couldn't see the light of day even for a second or two. Quiting Zoloft as abruptly as I did was one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life. Our doctors are making people such as my uncle and aunt believe that they will have to be on anti depressants the rest of their life and he has been takin prozac for over 15 years now believing this. We have lived all up until the last 30 years or so of human existance without taking antidepressants and now all of the sudden we need them. In my opinion anti depressants are a slightly different form of ecstacy it is a man made designer drug that is very powerful. I ended up finding a cure for my depression it consisted of three things Quting anti depressants, my faith in Christ and Essential Fatty Acids or Fish Oil. During my endevours to find a cure I found somthing that truely worked as far as a supplement goes. The problem with anti depressants is this. They either effect your Dopamine or Seratonin one or the other not both. When your Dopamine goes up chemically with an antidepressant your Sartonin goes down creating an imbalance. Conversley when your Seratonin goes up your Dopamine goes down. Lets abolish these durgs for good and promote things like Essential Fatty Acids that really help the problem with no side effects. 

Blake Ballew

Best Friend Of Sarina Angel